Tuesday, February 3, 2009

A Condition So Rare it's Name Must Not Be Spoken (because it does not have one)

I have learned that there is no real medical name for this condition. It's that rare.

The current plan is for me to keep my bladder empty and keep doing the "position". In a few weeks the uterus should grow enough so that it will pass that place on the spine where it's getting struck. I'm sore today. All that pulling and stretching of the cervix and uterus. My bladder feels a bit angry as well.

Next time I can't pee (if there is a next time) I get the catheter which they will leave in.

All in all I am feeling grateful. I am pregnant. There is no danger to the baby. None to me other than discomfort which, as far as I am concerned, pretty-much describes pregnancy.

And Tonya, they did not test me for UTI. I am watching out for it since it think a catheter could certainly cause one. I have an appointment tomorrow. Maybe I will ask them to test me for one. Just in case.

On Monday morning before I went to the DR. I was in agony. Since Mr. Peeveme is out of town I was trying to get my 2 year old ready for the day which usually requires a bit a coxing. She's two. Doesn't want to change her clothes. Doesn't want purple pants..not wait....only wants purple pants after being presented with brown pants ect.

I was telling her, "Mama feels bad. Mama has to go to the Dr. The Dr. has to help mama and baby. Please be good. Mama is sick and needs to go with baby to the Dr."

I didn't really think she could understand all that I was saying. I know she understands when I say I feel bad or sick but I didn't think she understood about going to the Dr.

While we were driving she asked me, "Mama? Baby gonna make it?" My heart soared and sank at the same time. Soared becasue she had empathy for the baby. Sank becasue I worried her. So I assured her that baby was fine. Mama was fine. We just needed some medicine (we call everything medicine including my doppler).

Yesterday I got to see the baby on the u/s. It was brief and I didn't get a print-out (we had other concerns at the time). But I got to see him/her. It's a real baby. It was moving, putting it's hands in it's mouth, rolling over. I know I have done this before but seeing this was no less exciting or awe inspiring than the first time with Piccolina. A few weeks ago it was just a little blob now it's so real.

I really needed to see him/her. I have been feeling somewhat detached lately. I have been all kinds of worried about my detachment (A post is brewing, it's just too chaotic right now...it will take form at some point). I needed to see a baby. Not an embryo, not a schedule, not a pack of BCP. After all the medicine and minutia it took to get here it's easy to forget what the goal looks like. It looks beautiful.


sara said...

Oh goodness I am so sorry that you have to go through this! Don't worry about the detachment feeling. I have to admit for awhile when I was pregnant with Brynn I felt a major lack of attachment. Not sure if it was because I was afraid of loosing her or what. But I hope you are feeling better soon and that this will all soon be a tiny blip in the radar of things. ((hugs))

Jojobee said...

I read your other post and this one and I'm glad that you're doing somewhat better. How crazy and awful that you have to go through all of that! I'm just thankful, as I'm sure you are, that baby is fine. I'm also glad you got to see him/her on an u/s again, I feel that everytime I have an u/s I feel and fall more in love with these little guys. You will too, it's tough to go through what we have, but it's worth it and I know that in time you'll feel that the baby is YOUR baby and no one can change that! You're carrying him/her and growing him/her... What a miracle in itself! Feel better and take it easy :)

April said...

Oh, I'm so sorry you had to go through all of that but I'm glad you got to see that sweet little baby! I hope this helps you feel that connection? This is my first so I have nothing to compare it to, but it felt weird in the beginning just to see a blob on the screen. Until that blob LOOKED like a baby, and not an alien peanut, I didn't feel as attached as I thought I would. Now? I can't get ENOUGH of looking at him/her on that u/s screen! ;-)

Chelle said...

I am so happy that you are getting through okay... Sorry about the discomfort.

Its great that you got to see your precious baby, though!

areyoukiddingme said...

Does this mean you get to name the condition yourself? I think it's only fair.

A two year old can come up with the most amazing things. Which kinda makes up for the purple vs brown pants endless debate...

Hope you're comfortably peeing on your own soon!

Peeveme said...


Oh yes, let's call it the Peeved Uterus. Seems to fit.

BagMomma said...

It stinks that you have this going on.

The detachment... I await your post, for personal reasons I am wondering where you are going with that thought. I've had A LOT of things running through my own head since the prep for my cycle has been so drawn out. And a lot of thoughts about "what if it really works".... but we can tackle that in another conversation.

Until then, be well. Thinking of you.

dreamsandfalsealarms said...

Yikes! Have you considered osteopathy? I think you live near me, and I'd be happy to tell you about them (they are medical doctors), and refer you to one. YOW!

Andrea said...

I so hope your ute ( & bladder) behave! Feel better!

P.S. Piccolina's question was SO sweet!

Brenda said...

I'm glad that it seems like you are on the mend, and I know what you mean about seeing the baby. I saw the twins last week....and they were kicking and punching...it was a beautiful thing!

Teresa said...

Your daughter is an angel, what a little sweetie. I'm glad you're slowly starting to feel better.

Ophelia said...

I can only imagine how amazing it must have been to see your little bean! Congrats Momma :) Hope your condition improves!

Renovation Girl said...

Peeved Uterus-love it! Glad things are status quo for now. Keep on peeing!!

littlebitofsomething said...

my friend had this with both her pregnancies. i asked her about her experience, she says: "Essentially at about 3 mos the uterus grew in such a way that it blocked the pee track. It happened only 1 - 2 times, then a catheter and antibiotics seems to do the trick. It REALLY hurts though. Its pretty dramatic -- then its over."

i don't know if that's in any way helpful but she seemed to have no trouble after she grew past that stage... but geez, it does not sound like fun.