Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Finally a DE Related Post

Just a passing thought I had today..not a long-well thought out post about Donor Eggs. Just a quick thought.

Today I thought, what if? What if I could magically change this fetus for one with my genetics. What if I could have that baby I wanted a year ago (before this DE adventure) but it meant this one would not exist. And I, without a second thought, chose this one.

I don't want A baby...I want this baby even though it's not my DNA. I want her. She is exactly who she is supposed to be. My DNA could not improve upon her.

10 comments:

Marie said...

Its a great day for reflection. So excited for you.

Sprogblogger said...

As someone whose next step is almost certainly DE, you have no idea how comforting it is to hear you say that! Thank you for this post!

Bella said...

I'm so glad to hear that! I hope I have to opportunity to feel the same way soon ;)

Riley said...

Very interesting. Right now, being at the very beginning of this journey where I don't even know the details of my donor yet, it's hard for me to completely wrap my brain around everything. I'm still at the point where I hope somehow I magically get pregnant on my own before we start cycling, but, hopefully, if all goes well and I'm given the opportunity to have a baby through the gift of donor eggs, I hope I'll feel the same as you. Thanks for sharing.

IVF 40+ said...

my god, that is a breathtakingly beautiful post. it made me cry.

Sky said...

I'm with IVF 40+ on this one - I, too, just got all choked up. For the extremely brief couple of days before I knew I had a chemical pregnancy last summer, no amount of my DNA felt more right than to have exactly whoever that little person was inside of me - that's the one I WANTED!

I'm convinced that no matter how hard we fight for the genetic connection, no matter how natural and right it is to have it, no matter how much we mourn it, neither DNA nor carrying the pregnancy truly matters. In the end, you really do love the baby you get more than anything in the world - no matter how complex "getting" that baby was!

Renovation Girl said...

Simply and purely beatiful...I'm sniffling over here, too.

eden said...

Oh what a beautiful post.

And I was looking at your ticker ... nine weeks to go, woot!

xo

Birdee said...

Beautiful post. Very touching.

Not on Fire said...

As a Mum of two sons through DE I totally get what you are saying.