Boo Hoo Hoo...I have two beautiful babies. Boo Hoo Hoo...I have wonderful in-laws who are willing to help us out. Boo Hoo Hoo...I'm thin. Boo Hoo Hoo I have accumulated so many material items that they are difficult to pack. Boo Hoo Hoo...I have a career that I enjoy and am paid pretty well for. Pity me!
Shut it, Peeveme.
I am stressed but need to change my mindset.
All (most) of my "problems" come from abundance. Life is full. Take it as is come.
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Day to day struggles, complaints, observations while trying to build a family despite infertility (Primary and Secondary and now with donor eggs), have a career, and live a meaningful life.
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About Me
- Peeveme
- married, mother to a toddler after infertility, step-parent to teenager who lives with us, trying to have baby #2 with an astounding lack of success. Finally successful once we tried donor eggs. Currently trying to balance complaining and appreciation.
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Perfect Moments.
TTC History and current status
Trying since Jan 2004 when I was 33. I have one Daughter who is 2. Trying for another baby for over a year. One m.c and 2 IVF's later we are preparing for IVF#3 with Donor eggs. . I am 38.
Diagnosis= unexplained..but what that really means is poor egg quality.
FSH
April 2008: 11.8
March 2008: 10.7
November 2007: 6
November 2004: 3.9
Considered a poor responder but I have gotten OHSS on inject/iui cycles. Go figure!
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IVF #3. Donor eggs. Success. Healthy baby girl born Aug 19, 2009. 7 frozen blasts.
IVF #2no BCP...Antagonist protocol with a little estrogen priming . Gonal-f and Menopur. Maximum medication. 7 egg retrieved. 5 mature. 6 fertalized. ET 3 embys: 2-8celled, 1-6 cell. BFN
IVF #1 April/May 08 On max meds...produced 4 mature eggs and a bunch of smaller ones which did not grow fast enough..2 survived to ET (1-8 celled, 1-5celled)...BFN.
Oct 07-Jan 08- 4 iui's on lots of Gonal-F. Most times I had 3-4 mature follicles..BFN. Oh and I got OHSS twice.
April 07- Inject /iui BFP! Not to last very long. At 7 week u/s we were measuring behind. HCG not doubling as it should Waited for over a month to m/c naturally. Had to wait most of the summer for HCG to go down. Increased my wine intake from "moderate" to "heavy". I don't want to complain about that Summer but let's just say I wont be making any custom T-shirts with Summer 2007! emblazoned on them.
March 07- 1st inject/iui for baby #2. BFN
Feb 07- Stopped breast feeding to start trying for baby #2. I loved breastfeeding and hated to stop but I felt I needed to get a move on with baby #2.
Aug 06- Healthy-live baby!
Jan 05-Oct 05- 7 clomid/iui cycles and 2 inject/iui cycles BFP on 2nd inject cycle
Jan 04-Jan 05- Natural cycles with Charting..actual sex
Diagnosis= unexplained..but what that really means is poor egg quality.
FSH
April 2008: 11.8
March 2008: 10.7
November 2007: 6
November 2004: 3.9
Considered a poor responder but I have gotten OHSS on inject/iui cycles. Go figure!
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IVF #3. Donor eggs. Success. Healthy baby girl born Aug 19, 2009. 7 frozen blasts.
IVF #2no BCP...Antagonist protocol with a little estrogen priming . Gonal-f and Menopur. Maximum medication. 7 egg retrieved. 5 mature. 6 fertalized. ET 3 embys: 2-8celled, 1-6 cell. BFN
IVF #1 April/May 08 On max meds...produced 4 mature eggs and a bunch of smaller ones which did not grow fast enough..2 survived to ET (1-8 celled, 1-5celled)...BFN.
Oct 07-Jan 08- 4 iui's on lots of Gonal-F. Most times I had 3-4 mature follicles..BFN. Oh and I got OHSS twice.
April 07- Inject /iui BFP! Not to last very long. At 7 week u/s we were measuring behind. HCG not doubling as it should Waited for over a month to m/c naturally. Had to wait most of the summer for HCG to go down. Increased my wine intake from "moderate" to "heavy". I don't want to complain about that Summer but let's just say I wont be making any custom T-shirts with Summer 2007! emblazoned on them.
March 07- 1st inject/iui for baby #2. BFN
Feb 07- Stopped breast feeding to start trying for baby #2. I loved breastfeeding and hated to stop but I felt I needed to get a move on with baby #2.
Aug 06- Healthy-live baby!
Jan 05-Oct 05- 7 clomid/iui cycles and 2 inject/iui cycles BFP on 2nd inject cycle
Jan 04-Jan 05- Natural cycles with Charting..actual sex
I Capture
Perfect Moments.
6 comments:
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Just because your life is filled with wonderful things doesn't make it less stressful. But the wonderful things make the stress a little easier to bear.
Also, it always helps to belt out a few lines from "It's my party and I'll cry if I want to!"
Yeah, you are such a $^$%#! Ha! Well, we all have to have our little fits and then look back and think, wow I have it so good. Otherwise, how could we appreciate how good it really is?! Glad you have so many good things, sorry it's stressful!
Haha! I know exactly what your saying, sometimes I want to follow those rants with, "and my gold shoes are too tight!"
It's true though: just because it is good, doesn't mean it's any less stressful!
You're not the only one. I've been known to bray on occasion as well.
At least you do it with awareness. Makes it less ass-ish.
And also what A said.
I think we are all entitled to our days of self-pitying. It happens!
This post has nothing to dowith yourcurrent life other than we justtransferred a single donor egg embryo three days ago-not that I am counting or anything. This is ourfirsttime transferring only one and I am terrified that it won't work. We chose to transferone since I delivered ourson (donor egg FET-two transferred-one took) 7 weeks early. After our first DE baby was stillborn at 6 months (transferred 3-one took)having to leave our son in the NICU sent me over the edge-serious PTSD. Anyhow I am already considered high risk for pre-term labor-was on bed rest, probably will be again, I just couldn't responsibly put two in knowing that the risk of something happening to the babies or me would be even greater but I am wondering if I made the right decision. Your story gives me hope! Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CONGRATULATIONS!
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