Day to day struggles, complaints, observations while trying to build a family despite infertility (Primary and Secondary and now with donor eggs), have a career, and live a meaningful life.
My heart sinks, I'm holding on to hope but I understand the possibilities of what could be happening here. Dang it all – I wished it could be easier than this. ~billion hugs~
Still holding onto that fickle bitch Hope and wanting her to deliver the goods this time. Thinking of you during the what-feels-like interminable wait.
I'm so sorry, I'm hoping that all your HPT's are duds and that the beta will bring you a nice surprise...I can understand the this can't be true reaction after having such good embies put back, none of this is fair at all!! Try and keep the faith, not long to go now...
married, mother to a toddler after infertility, step-parent to teenager who lives with us, trying to have baby #2 with an astounding lack of success. Finally successful once we tried donor eggs. Currently trying to balance complaining and appreciation.
Trying since Jan 2004 when I was 33. I have one Daughter who is 2. Trying for another baby for over a year. One m.c and 2 IVF's later we are preparing for IVF#3 with Donor eggs. . I am 38.
Diagnosis= unexplained..but what that really means is poor egg quality.
FSH
April 2008: 11.8 March 2008: 10.7 November 2007: 6 November 2004: 3.9
Considered a poor responder but I have gotten OHSS on inject/iui cycles. Go figure!
____________________________________________ IVF #3. Donor eggs. Success. Healthy baby girl born Aug 19, 2009. 7 frozen blasts.
IVF #2no BCP...Antagonist protocol with a little estrogen priming . Gonal-f and Menopur. Maximum medication. 7 egg retrieved. 5 mature. 6 fertalized. ET 3 embys: 2-8celled, 1-6 cell. BFN
IVF #1 April/May 08 On max meds...produced 4 mature eggs and a bunch of smaller ones which did not grow fast enough..2 survived to ET (1-8 celled, 1-5celled)...BFN.
Oct 07-Jan 08- 4 iui's on lots of Gonal-F. Most times I had 3-4 mature follicles..BFN. Oh and I got OHSS twice.
April 07- Inject /iui BFP! Not to last very long. At 7 week u/s we were measuring behind. HCG not doubling as it should Waited for over a month to m/c naturally. Had to wait most of the summer for HCG to go down. Increased my wine intake from "moderate" to "heavy". I don't want to complain about that Summer but let's just say I wont be making any custom T-shirts with Summer 2007! emblazoned on them.
March 07- 1st inject/iui for baby #2. BFN
Feb 07- Stopped breast feeding to start trying for baby #2. I loved breastfeeding and hated to stop but I felt I needed to get a move on with baby #2.
Aug 06- Healthy-live baby!
Jan 05-Oct 05- 7 clomid/iui cycles and 2 inject/iui cycles BFP on 2nd inject cycle
Jan 04-Jan 05- Natural cycles with Charting..actual sex
10 comments:
I'm really sorry. I feel your pain.
Hugs...
My heart sinks, I'm holding on to hope but I understand the possibilities of what could be happening here. Dang it all – I wished it could be easier than this. ~billion hugs~
I'm so sorry. I'll be here reading and supporting you either way.
I am so sorry hun, still hoping though.
sorry amber. still early, but still sucks.
I've been reading your posts and sending you good thoughts.
I wish you, well, I don't know what to wish. I am here. Abiding with you.
Still holding onto that fickle bitch Hope and wanting her to deliver the goods this time. Thinking of you during the what-feels-like interminable wait.
I'm so sorry, I'm hoping that all your HPT's are duds and that the beta will bring you a nice surprise...I can understand the this can't be true reaction after having such good embies put back, none of this is fair at all!! Try and keep the faith, not long to go now...
Stay positive, and it should work out with your beta. Sending you lots of hope and faith...
I'm so sorry Amber.
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