Changes

If a girl's gotta get a BFN on her last IVF with her own eggs she could not choose a better time than ICLW! Yay empathetic comments!

To tell the truth I'm surprised and disappointed that I am not pregnant. I thought when push came to shove things would work out even if I did have to work harder, spend more money, be tougher than the average person is called-on to be. After all that work and faith I thought that in the end it would all work out. For most people it does. Most people, after multiple IVF's, do get pregnant. The only thing about IVF that scared me was the fact that it was the last chance. And now it's over and I've been unsuccessful. At times I burst out in tears (rarely). Other times I am more analytical. Right now my current mood is: mope (mope-y?, mope-ish?)

I wish to write openly about the next phase of this venture. I can't do that and remain open about my identity. I'll be making changes to this blog. Need to remove names, pictures and other identifying information. If you use g.o.o.g.l.e r.e.a.d.e.r I apologize if you get many updates from me that are not new posts. It's just me editing old posts and re-publishing.

I think my family deserves some privacy while I do my emotional/spiritual work.