Still early but not looking good 8dp3dt (11dpo)

Negative test this morning. I know, still early but at least the blow (potential blow?) had been softened. If it turns around then nobody will happier or more surprised than me.

I think I caught another cold. WTF? I was starting to feel better...getting to the phlegm/cough part of the cold and now my throat is sore again. We went to a play on Saturday night and it was outdoors. Usually, in the middle of August it's nice and warm outside at night. This summer's very cool weather (in Nor Cal) meant that it was cold and damp and despite many, many layers it did nothing for my cold. In fact, I think the old cold has been delayed from getting better and I might have another cold layered on top for extra suckiness. I spent much of the weekend in bed...which is UNHEARD of for me. I never lay down...ever. I was feeling so run-down I could not get out of bed for much of the day on both Saturday and Sunday. Usually, the call of a toilet in need of scrubbing has much more allure.

I hate to complain but two colds and a negative pregnancy test makes me feel kind-of sorry for myself.


Plus, it's my annual "get passed over" day at work. So that's always fun. Since this is not an anonymous blog that is all I should say about it. But, of course, I will say more cuz that blurting problem of mine extends to the written word. Let's just say I wont be adding any plagues to my wall this year. "Get Passed over" being an annual event, this is not a real surprise. I'm like the Susan Lucci of the Employee-award-world except without the throngs of people acknowledging you've been robbed. I lack throngs.

Also, I think I may, indeed, be invisible. I know! How else is it that I was left off two, TWO separate presentations, created by two separate people, in which team-members of certain initiatives were publicly acknowledge for their contribution? I'm sure I was at all of those meetings. I even crunched and presented data to one of the initiatives. Seriously, this is like a personal-best for "get passed over day" for me. I am the super-hero of losers completed with a super-power (unintentional invisibility).


OMG, maybe my second line is just invisible? Three top-graded embys and none of the implanted? Yes, invisibility seems to answer a whole lot of sad-sack mysteries.

It's only noon so there is time for a) the day the get better thus establishing an equilibrium (ha!) 2) the day could get worse (please no, even I have my limits. Let's save a little suck for next week shall we?)